Training Log Day 47

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Training Log Day 46

Dream Journal:

I dreamed I was dating two wolves again.

Regular Journal:

I woke up at about 10 O’clock. Ate breakfast, which was already prepared, and then meditated for 20 minutes. I got very deep during the meditation, and only looked at the timer once. It was painful at some points, because I was so sleepy. Still I am proud of the job that I did. Then we went to the psychiatrist in Atlanta. It was a good conversation, and I may start on a new medication soon. Then we came home. I got into a little tussle with mom because she wanted to hear an afterlife presentation I was listening to, but stopped wanting to after awhile. I asked her what she thought of it and she said she thought it was interesting but completely disagreed about reincarnation. I said it was appropriate he brought it up because I wanted to try Past Life Regression Therapy. It wasn’t much of an argument, I suppose, but I felt on edge afterwards, because her unyieldingness reminded of me of many incidents in childhood which had hurt me in later life. But I just told myself I was tired, and everything settled down. Then we went to Wal-Mart and got some vegetarian meals to prepare when we got home. Then we went home, and I cooked the meals. I was to tired to work out today. I did some RPing with my friend, and talked to another friend who I hadn’t talked to in awhile. Then I talked to my sister. Then I changed clothes. Now I am about to meditate and go to sleep.

 

Training Log Day 45

Dream Journal: I dreamed, if I remember correctly, that I was dating wolves, two of them.

Regular Journal: I woke up a bit late again. I talked to a friend on Telegram. I then meditated and my mom came in and fixed breakfast. It wasn’t as good as normal because the soy milk had soured (our fridge is having trouble) but we made a grocery list and we got the stuff so things should be better tomorrow. Then I watched the Documentary, “Life After Life,” by Dr. Raymond Moody Jr. then watched “Raymond Moody: Reincarnation,” both on YouTube. Then it was time to work out. Like yesterday, I had to pause a lot, but I got all my reps in and continued with my progress. Afterwards, I continued to talk and rp with my friend, also talking to my mates. I also read parts of the Gospel of the Holy Twelve, Section 2. Then my mom came in and we talked and she stated she had gotten an email back from RZIM and so I decided to respond to that while continuing my rp with my friend. The Rp went amazingly, while the email was very emotionally took it out of me. I said something a little sharp to my friend afterwards, and he asked me what I was talking about but didn’t respond when I responded, but luckily hours later we worked it out very nicely and became even stronger friends as a result of this. While I was waiting I went up to my mom’s friends house again and had vegetarian pizza with my mom and her friend. I had to walk back down the hill twice for vape stuff and the second time I decided to stay. Then my sister called and we had a good talk. Then I realized my friend had responded to me and we had a good chat. Then I took a shower and came back and my friend hugged me because I said I was scared to go to sleep and I asked him to hug me. Now I am about to meditate and go to sleep.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 12

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 12

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 12

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 12

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-7 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Last Meditation: Breath Meditation: 10 Minutes.

Training Log Day 44

Dream Journal:

I dreamed I was vaping a vape as big as a railroad sign stopper. It had refillable cartridges as big as cups, and I was with a nerd looking at it and talking to him. Then I had to go back into a hotel to go to a certain floor, and the hotel was haunted and when I got into the elevator there was a section that was hollowed out and I could see down to the bottom where there were creatures in a pit ready to eat me if I jumped down, but I didn’t jump down and I thought I was a good boy. I clicked on a button and spoke and told it to take me to floor no. 23 and the number 23 came up and it took me there. And I fed cookie crumbs from a bag into the hole to feed the monsters, and they screeched as the crumbs fell to them. And I realized I was on the wrong floor as I stepped out and looked for my room number. And I realized I was on floor 15 and come back to look for it.

I also dreamed I was going to a church to rest on the porch of it but then I found myself in it. And I went up the stairs and greeted Beau and he was now the Pastor of Hickory Flat and the church was changed, and then I was running through it and I met Andrew English and it had been years and he had gained weight and had blond hair, and I heard his voice clear as day telling me he hadn’t seen me in awhile, and his face was smiling and good things were happening to him. And then I went to another part of the church but a girl called me to play games in a rec room part of it and I consented to playing there for awhile but regretted it because I wanted to truly attend church and I said so. Someone said to me, “Wait, your church counts people in attendance who go to the game room?” Then I realized I had not been counted in attendance.

Regular Journal:

I woke up a bit late and ate breakfast, which was the usual oatmeal, with fruit, peanut butter, soy milk, and some added sorghum syrup, minus the bananas. Then I went back into the bedroom, and watched Psychic Detectives and read LGBTQ Nation articles, till it was time to work out. I had to pause a lot, like yesterday, but still got the reps in and made the daily progress. Afterwards I read parts of the Gospel of the Holy Twelve. I read the rest of Lection 1. Then mom came in and we made dinner, which was spaghetti and veggie stir fry. I was able to help out more than usual. But first we went for a car ride because I had to help her with something and then to Lula to get some chips and something to drink. We got in a fight on the way home over the use of Psychics, but we worked it out and both came to a good understanding, in my case particularly by focusing on where my energy was coming from and what I could do about it and express it positively. Then I meditated for a third time, showered, and went to bed.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 11

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 11

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 11

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 11

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-6 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Last Meditation: Breath Meditation: 10 Minutes.

Training Log Day 43

Dream Journal:

I dreamed there were pets who were interacting with us, and I dreamed there were two frogs, or a frog and a snake or a rat and a snake who were trying to eat a third frog, and it escaped but the entire scene changed as it jumped away and a woman threw leaves and wind from the back (the underside) of an umbrella at the frog as it escaped and it turned to ice and froze the frog, and she said, “I know he’s been trying to catch it for years,” referring to the frog and the other frog or rat as her pet who had been trying to catch the first for years. And the other frog or rat was disappointed as she lowered the ice sickle with the frost covered frog down to it.

I woke up a bit late again today, despite waking up early and going to bed at the normal time yesterday. 11 is late for me, but it is the new normal now. I hope to get it down to eight or nine. I ate breakfast which was the same delicious oats, soy milk, fruit and peanut butter as usual, and then read articles on LGBTQ Nation and responded to some hateful comments there, before drinking some coffee and meditating. I went very deep in my meditations and felt very much at peace, having peaceful images of being eaten by a snake come into my mind. I came out of the meditation but still I felt a bit weak so I put off exercising a bit longer and read a few more articles. Then I exercised. I had to pause a bit more than usual, but I still managed the same number of reps as before, except on my advanced exercises and Shaolin Warm Ups, Stretches, and Drills, which both increased as per usual. Afterwards I rested for a bit then read the last part of The Last Section in the Gospel of the Holy Twelve, followed by the Prologue and First Lection of the First Section of the same. After this I watched “Kenpo Karate Ed Parker American Kenpo Sophisticated Basics Vol. 2, and a little way into it decided to go with mom to take a coworker home. I read “The Acts of the Nazirenes,” Ch. 6-8, and “Heretic, An LGBT Affirming, Divine Violence Denying, Univeralist’s Answers to Evangelical Christianity’s Most Pressing Questions,” And I watched some more of the Ed Parker Video. When I got home I ate Lasagna and finished the video. The entire video! Wow. And I felt like I got something out of it. Tomorrow I watch Vol. 1 again and began practicing some of the stances that are spoken of. After that I watched Psychic detectives, then went in the living room and watched American Dad, followed by some Toonami recorded shows. Then I took a shower and afterwards talked to my sister for awhile. Now I am about to meditate for the final time and prepare for bed. I did my meditation. Most of it was taken up with the count down because I went super slow, one breath per count. I did manage to give myself some programming and had visions of a serpent hugging a boy. Now I am going to sleep.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 10

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 10

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 10

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 10

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-5 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Last Meditation: Breath Meditation: 10 Minutes.

Training Log Day 42

Today was a rest day. I fasted till 6pm and I fasted from vaping both before church and a little afterwards. It’s a start. I watched Toonami in the afternoon with Shadow, and ate Lasagna in the evening with mom and her friend at his house, which is near mine.

Training Log Day 41

Dream Journal:

I dreamed I was with my family. It was a good dream with nice demons in it. I just don’t remember much about it.

Regular Journal:

I woke up a bit late today (12) and ate breakfast which I found in the microwave. I then meditated for 20 minutes, laying down, and I was at peace for a great deal of time and was relatively unconcerned where I was in my head. I then read articles on LGBTQ Nation and talked to Lucas for a bit. I then meditated in preparation for talking to the psychic. It was breath meditation. Then I talked to psychic Sherri Brown. We talked about my recent experiences with anxiety which she said was due to planetary alliance problems and that I just needed to wait it out for the next two weeks. I also asked her about studying under her, because she has stated that I myself am psychic and she stated that while she was in India right now she would keep me in mind in the future when she returned. I told her I had often felt as if I was supposed to wake up and do some important work elsewhere and that I almost felt that my purpose was not on this earth. She stated that I was sent here with a divine purpose but that I had been thrown into some early childhood traumas, to the point that it had made me not enjoy being alive on this earth, and that I had never felt at home on this earth. Like a kid being sent to summer camp and it being a vacation from hell, I like the the kid wanted to just go home but was told I couldn’t before I learned the lessons earth had to teach. I said I also felt like I was supposed to do some great and important work and she said I was.  She stated that I right now needed to focus on clearing myself before I could do the great work that I was assigned to do. She gave me the title of a book on Psychic protection, “The Llewellyn Practical Guide to Psychic Self-Defense & Wellbeing,” that she said I should read, because I was too sensitive to not only other people but to spiritual influences as well. She gave me advice on my relationship as well. I asked if she still saw it ending and she said at first that it was up in the air but that she still saw it ending. I asked how I could do this without hurting my mate since he has been hurt many times in the past by his mates. and she asked me for his first name and I told her, “Loic Noseworthy.” She stated that the relationship was a healing one right now and that it did not need to go anywhere for the time being because he let me be myself and likewise I helped him in his healing. She stated that when the time came I would know how to exit. I have no plans to leave my mate but the relationship has been strained and this just tells me how much work I am going to have to put in to keep it going. I am really going to have to give it my absolute best shot. She stated that I had been feeling a lot recently and that is true, she stated that I had been very intuitive and that is correct as well. She also suggested I keep a video log of my progress once a week. Overall it was a very good talk, lasting about 15 minutes.

Then I exercised. Overall my pauses were the same, but I pushed myself harder today, and the exercises came to me more easily. Then I watched Harry Potter with my friend, then went to help my mom fix dinner with her friend, then came home and took a shower, and now I am about to meditate one last time and go to bed.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 9

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 9

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 9

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 9

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-4 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Last Meditation: Breath Meditation: 10 Minutes.

Training Log Day 40

Dream Journal:

I dreamed I was on a sky ride, and then a roller coaster, traveling with my family. Then I dreamed I was in the car and Shadow was smoking behind and I was a little offended because I had given it up for the day.

Regular Journal:

Woke up earlier than usual. Ate breakfast and then struggled to remember my dream. Remembered what I could and wrote it down and then went back to finish yesterday’s journal. Finished the Journal, and now am going to take my meds and vitamins, drink coffee, and meditate. I meditated, for 20 minutes just like normal. I layed down. Visions came to my mind of myself with Serperior, and I added Arbok to the group as well. I gave myself extra affirmations, that I would be sharp and focused today. Then I chanted, “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo,” and “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Svaha,” Then I waited a few minutes and began to exercise. I pushed myself harder this time, though the number of pauses were approximately the same. Still I felt the session went well overall. Then I read Section 7, Lections 61-70, in the Gospel of the Holy Twelve. Today’s reading concerned prophecies for the end times, teachings on the Kingdom of Heaven, and warnings against the scribes and Pharisees, along with Jesus’s triumphal entry into Jerusalem. I then meditated again for the afternoon and took my afternoon meds. The meditation went well, and I felt at peace as I lay there. I continued to give myself positive affirmations about the day, pictured specific parts of my body I was concerned about surrounded by and suffused with healing blue light, and pictured myself with my mates, telling myself our relationship was getting better and better, all the way to perfection. It did not concern me where I was in my mind until the end and at that point only very slightly. I then read Session 2 “Controlling Your Body by Controlling Your Mind,” in the Book, “You the Healer, The World Famous Silva Method on How to Heal Yourself and Others.” It gave me ideas for better relaxing myself and renewed my focus for what the purpose of relaxation and meditation was. I will definitely carry this forward into my next training session and those beyond. I then watched “Kenpo Karate American Kenpo Sophisticated Basics Vol. 1,” but got nervous and decided to go with mom taking a worker home. We ended up taking two workers home and one to the grocery store. One had given me a hard time about vaping in the past so I avoided it around him. I talked to my mate on the way as well and it helped me to feel better. I also read two articles in LGBTQ Nation:

“Illinois’s Republican governor married a gay couple & the religious right is really miffed,”

and

“Jimmy Carter: ‘Jesus would approve of gay marriage’,”

We ended up going to Walmart where I got some more Shampoo and Conditioner and some food for what we were making at home this evening, vegetarian spaghetti and sauteed greens.  Then we ate dinner. After dinner I finished the Ed Parker video, and will watch it again tomorrow. And now I am about to meditate for the third time today and take my night meds. I finished meditating and took the night meds. Then I took a shower and afterwards went to bed.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 8

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 8

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 8

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 8

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-4 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Training Log Day 39

Dream Journal:

I dreamed I was like Gohen from Hunter X Hunter, and my sister and I were training and hiding from our master, but when I went to hide in the room where we were supposed to hide, I froze up and hid under a desk instead of in the ceiling where I was supposed to. I made a funny face and made thumbs up because I knew he would find me. The man looking for us was Kakashi Sensei from Naruto. I was disappointed because we could only use hide in the ceiling once, since he would know where to look the next time. My sister was disappointed in me as well, but overall it was fun. We were trained to hide under cars as well.

I dreamed I was talking to a sentient computer. Kittens were there, and I was playing with them, but they didn’t want to play with me, and I captured one and it screamed a great deal, so I let it go, feeling bad. Then I talked to the sentient computer, which I layed on my belly and lay down and talked to. It told me that the evil in me came from my stomach, from something I ate poisoning me. We talked some more, and then I left it, hiding it in a special spot. Then I layed down and looked at the sky and millions of galaxies were above me in it. It was so beautiful, it was like looking into the face of God. Then something began to pour pollution into the sky and the galaxies began to disappear. I ran with Sally back to the place where the laptop was at and the sea had come up and was covering the buildings, but the computer had merged with a plant and was still operational. I picked it up before the waters began to cover that area and we ran together as people were beginning to fight the people and invaders that were causing the sky to become polluted and the sea to change. The computer said it had to help with military stuff and that it would talk to me later. Then I was in space, fighting the main guy who was stealing the tech to give to the aliens. He was trying to download info and perhaps the computer to give it to the aliens. And I fought him with a balloon sword. He showed me my entire world view and Toonami was there in my world view and this was as our swords crossed and all this was shown to me in a moment of time. Then my balloon popped. He told me to ask for the heavier one and I did but I did not fight as well, so I asked the people for my old balloon sword type back and they gave it to me and this time it was thin, like a rapier sword. And the man who was heavy transformed into Will Smith and he was thin as well. And this was the final battle and he had ballon throwing stars ready to stab into me and he counted, “one, two, three,” preparing to thrust them but at three I stabbed through him drawing blood and then I slit his throat and he bled out and became thinner all over, like a deflated balloon. And I prayed for his soul as he died and I was celebrated as a hero. And my sword carried me all over town, and the aliens, which were tiny robots, were being destroyed and I felt bad for them, so I went to where they were and began trying to communicate with them. And I heard them say, “We became scattered and lost forever.” and I touched them with my hands and they came to me, the nanobots, and began to form hands holding me. And people did not know what they were but realized they were forming hands. And they transformed into a ship and it was my ship from a past life, and the Doctor from Doctor who was mad because his assistant had told him the last of these nanomeds was found on a Darlak and she had lied to him about this. And I got into the ship and it began to communicate with the sentient computer which I had with me. And then it said it had to help with military stuff for rebuilding society and it would talk to me later. And Sally was there and the ship took me through my past lives, for it was my ship and always had been. And some of my past lives were covered in anime shows but what had actually happened was different in appearance than what the shows said. And I was a hero like from he man but Medusa had killed me, then I was reborn as space dandy, but he looked different and had a lizard’s face. And he transformed into space dandy and had four faces and talked like Quagmire from Family guy mixed with Steve Urkel.

Regular Journal:

I woke up a bit late, trying to remember my dream and every detail of it. I struggled but successfully wrote it down then went into the kitchen and had breakfast. I actually messed up with breakfast, because my mom had left the real breakfast for me in the microwave, and when I came into the kitchen I thought that the breakfast on the table was for me, when really it was left over from my friend’s breakfast. So I ate that. Then mom called and I found the real breakfast, and ate some of that, especially the pancakes. Then I went in the bedroom and rested for a few minutes, then I meditated. It was difficult, and I changed positions several times, even laying down at one point, but it went well overall. Then I rested for a few more minutes, and waited for an hour till I was able to do my exercises. I had coffee during this time, drinking it first in the kitchen, then in the bedroom, there reading “The Acts of the Nazirenes,” ch. 2-5. I had to pause during the exercises, between the warmups, and between the last standard set and the first advanced set. Still the exercises went well overall. Then I began reading “The Gospel of the Holy Twelve,” and when I came to Lection 53, my mom came in to take me and Shadow to the vape shop. She was in a poor mood with Shadow because of something that happened. We hung out at the vape shop for a Couple of hours till it closed. The most interesting, and embarrassing moment was when I showed Pokemon porn to the shop keep, a subject brought up by Shadow. Another interesting point brought up was when he said his wife wanted multiple kids but he cut her off at 3. I joked he was lucky she hadn’t converted to Mormonism, and he said she actually was a Mormon. I asked how they got married then, since Mormons are encouraged not to marry outside Mormonism. He said she just didn’t care what her parents thought. Another good conversation we had was about my concern about Supreme Court Justice Anthony Kennedy’s retirement, Trump’s conservative nomination, and the possible overturning of the Oglethorpe Gay Marriage Decision. He stated if it was overturned people would riot, but that he could give no guarantees and that we would have to play it by ear. He also asked why my mom would not come in and be social. After we left the vape shop mom was still in a bad mood. We went to Wal-Mart to pick up a few supplies for dinner, which turned out to be excellent. On the way home I just couldn’t take it any more, and let mom know I had had enough. The rest of the drive was passed in silence. I enjoyed the beautiful clouds in the evening. When we got home mom and I talked about why she was upset, and then went to fix dinner. It was a delicious stir fry with tofu and wilted dark green leafy greens. I added lots of soy sauce. It was very good and gluten free. After this I took my night meds, and unable to stay awake any longer, I went to sleep at 10:30. I gave myself nasal spray to clear my passages. I couldn’t sleep immediately, but was so tired I could do nothing but lay there. Lucas and I talked for a bit, and then finally I fell asleep.

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 7

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 7

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 7

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 7

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-3 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Training Log Day 38

Dream Journal:

I first dreamed I was in class with other students and I was assigned to the same place with Kyle Shultz. And he insulted me and I insulted him back, confronting him on his past evil deeds. And yet somehow we became friends. Then Zachary Clark came back to life, and it turns out that the body they found was someone else. I questioned Clark about whether he was a clone or some kind of double, and this upset the other classmates and Mrs. Ecke, the teacher. I told Clark that if he felt like he should have been the one to die that he should not feel this way, and that I knew what it was like to feel this way, and this upset the classmates even more, though it calmed the teacher a little. And my mom came and picked me up and was upset with me that I talked with the teacher and students so.

I then dreamed someone came into my local vape shop and seriously verbally mistreated the owners. It got bad to the point I punched him into a wall, and Big Bobby told me to run and leave the shop because he said the punch came only from adrenaline and I couldn’t keep it up and beat up the other guy. We went out on the road and put a sign on the guys car stating he got aids from a parlor. We went out on the road and mom took me to a roller coaster and then big Bobby put a bomb on a package on the road. I was hanging out of the car as he did this. I then scootched back into the car. Then we came back into the vape shop, and I looked at the place where I had pounded the man into the wall and wondered if perhaps I should have stayed and finished beating him up. And the man from before came in and he had torn down our sign and he threw it at us. And I hung out at the vape shop and went outside and looked at three possible videos. And one said, “spirit of God,” in gangsta script, with swords and gold surrounding the letters. And I had to use an alternative vape in the vape shop because mine had been taken. And the man who had been beaten took us to court and the judge pronounced that we would have to work on quilts in the evening for the rest of our lives, and I begged him to hear me out but he wouldn’t, so I called out to him insultingly as the man had called out to us, and he stopped and asked if I was crazy. Then I followed him and continued to take revenge on him, and took his favorite bench, and took a small statue from it and fed it to magic worms, and his wife sang a dirge as the worms ate the statue and a giant worm came out and devoured it, and transformed into Arbok who winked at me. Then I left. And then I woke up.

Regular Journal:

I woke up tired, and struggled to record my long dream, which I have successfully done. I had breakfast and then recorded the rest of the dream and now am about to meditate. I meditated. The first time was difficult, but rewarding. I was tired and my mind dragged a bit, but I chanted out loud, “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Sva,” and gave myself affirmations, and was able to stay in the same room in my house. I then went to town with my mom to go to the counselor. On the way and just before we got there I read The Gospel of the Holy Twelve, and afterwards finished Section 5 Lections 41-50 Our session went well. We talked about relationship issues I was having, and ways to distract myself from the anxiety and agitation I had experienced yesterday. I got into a little bit of a tussle with her about Xanax, which I take, as she insisted this was a short term med, whereas I thought I might need it more often, but we came to a reasonable conclusion that I should take it once in a while when I really needed it. She also had me write down a list of things that distracted me from my anxiety. Afterwards we went home and enjoyed a DQ blizzard, but I felt bad about eating it having recently watched a documentary which detailed in part how poorly milk cows were treated. Plus it wasn’t very good for us, which I told to my mom afterwards and I told her we should not do it anymore, she being the one who suggested it. I should have thanked her though as well, I just worry about her health. We got home and I helped her fix dinner, though first I took my afternoon meds and meditated. My second session occurred when in my head I was outside my house in the yard, though physically the meditation took place in my bedroom, the first having taken place in the comfy chair in my living room. The second meditation was the most peaceful of the three, and I was most alert and able to keep my mind focused on the images of the Dao within a circle and Yin Yang Symbol superimposed over each other, the Dao and circle superimposed over the Yin Yang in the background. I was able to let myself float around the yard, staying close to the tree outside but for the most part allowing my mind freedom to move me around. After that we fixed veggie burgers on pretzel buns with guac, fresh kale, chunky salsa and sriracha ketchup with a side of wilted kale with garlic, and baked sweet potato fries. After eating I watched “Psychic Detectives, the Sign of the Cross Season 4 Episode 6, and then part of the Documentary on Youtube, “Mediums, Talking to the Dead.” Then it was time to exercise. I did have to pause between warming up and my first set of exercises, and between that and my second, and between that and my advanced exercises and running, but I was still winded afterwards so I know I did a good job. It was just because it was later in the day. I need to focus more on martial arts, and related subjects, including computer programming. I also need to read more. The interest in mediumship and Psychics is because I myself have been told I am Psychic, and I have had psychic experiences. It’s also a way to distract myself when the anxiety comes. In fact I wrote something like that down on the list I made earlier.

Articles Read:

“Judge denies trans teens name change because Caitlyn Jenner may have brainwashed him,”

“Israeli Parlament refuses to change law that bans gays and lesbians from surrogacy,”

“Is the New University of Wyoming’s slogan homophobic and sexist?”

Exercises:

Convict Conditioning, done in accordance with the principles of the Effortless Exercise System –

Wall Pushups: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Incline Pushups: 6

Leg Tucks: 50, in 2 sets of 25 \\ Flat Knee Raises: 6

Vertical Pulls: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Horizontal Pulls: 6

Jackknife Squats: 40, in 2 sets of 20 \\ Supported Squats: 6

Ran 1 Lap down the driveway and back up and around the house. (Note: had to go down on this because I was increasing my numbers too fast.)

Zen in the art of Self Resistance –

All Stretches for Chest, Abdomen, Back, done 3 times

Custom Stretches for legs from Shaolin Warmups and Stretches along with Zen – 5 times each or 1 sessions of stretching for 5 counts

Shaolin Warm Ups and Stretches Exercise 1-4 Complete

The manual, a guide to the ultimate study method; and You The Healer.

Meditation: First Meditation: Mantra Meditation: “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” 20 min.

Second Meditation: Symbol Meditation: Dao Symbol and Yin Yang Symbol: 10 Minutes

Third Meditation: Breath Meditation: 10 Minutes